This will be my first post since I moved to New York City. It is not the first post that I have tried to write, however. Every time I have attempted to write a blog, I have become enveloped with feelings and thus rendered incapable of saying anything of value... or even ... coherency.
This blog is an attempt at valuable coherency. Or at the very least... coherency.
This blog is an attempt at valuable coherency. Or at the very least... coherency.
I have been in the city for a little over a month, now. I moved here to be an actress... Well, wait... I was already an actress. I moved here to ... be an actress in NYC... to ... what is it people ask me...
"So, you wanna be on Broadway, right?"
And I reply, "Well, yes. That would be pretty awesome....err... but broadway isn't the only measure of - ... never mind."
I feel like I spend a decent amount of time explaining, and yes, defending my career choice to people. I am included in that group of people as well. There are days when things don't go very well, and I have to take myself aside and explain to me... what the H-E- double hockey sticks I am doing with my life.
But it gets really aggravating when I come in contact with people who don't see my life decisions as "grown up."
A family friend asked me about three months ago, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" Now, I honestly don't think she meant to be rude or condescending. But wow! That was a major slap in the face. "Well... I ...er... AM grown up. And I ... I am trying to be an actress.... I am moving to New York... er... " I stumbled over my words and became very ashamed of my choices. And that is just silly. It is a great thing to pursue that which makes you happy. So, here I am... in NYC pursuing that which makes me happy.
"So, you wanna be on Broadway, right?"
And I reply, "Well, yes. That would be pretty awesome....err... but broadway isn't the only measure of - ... never mind."
I feel like I spend a decent amount of time explaining, and yes, defending my career choice to people. I am included in that group of people as well. There are days when things don't go very well, and I have to take myself aside and explain to me... what the H-E- double hockey sticks I am doing with my life.
But it gets really aggravating when I come in contact with people who don't see my life decisions as "grown up."
A family friend asked me about three months ago, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" Now, I honestly don't think she meant to be rude or condescending. But wow! That was a major slap in the face. "Well... I ...er... AM grown up. And I ... I am trying to be an actress.... I am moving to New York... er... " I stumbled over my words and became very ashamed of my choices. And that is just silly. It is a great thing to pursue that which makes you happy. So, here I am... in NYC pursuing that which makes me happy.
In the meantime... I work at JCrew. A job that doesn't quite pay my bills. I will need to work on that. But I am in RVA for the summer. So, getting another job for under two months wasn't a great possibility. Awe well, it just means I have had more time to audition... and submit for things and be jealous of people more successful than me.
Just kidding about that last one.
Sort of.
In all honesty, I am having a wonderful time living in the city. I have done some really cool stuff,... that will be detailed in a later blog. :)
But. I guess the point is- it is important to decide and to realize that what you want to do with your life is valid.
Wanting to be happy is valid. Go for it.
Just kidding about that last one.
Sort of.
In all honesty, I am having a wonderful time living in the city. I have done some really cool stuff,... that will be detailed in a later blog. :)
But. I guess the point is- it is important to decide and to realize that what you want to do with your life is valid.
Wanting to be happy is valid. Go for it.