As an actress/singer/dancer (#mover); there are times when my weight comes under scrutiny. Usually my own scrutiny, but sometimes other people take an interest as well. On a Broad scheme, there are two types of interest. Some people worry that I have an unhealthy obsession with my weight and that I will end up sickeningly skinny. Others think I am unaware of my extra weight and just need to be told or slightly nudged in the right direction.
Ok, there are people who fall in-between. But those in-betweeners know who they are and are usually my close friends.
Here's the thing. I am not either of those things people think... here, I'll prove it to you.
Some thoughts:
I am never going to be shaped like Keira Knightly. Even if I weighed the same as her, my body shape is different; nor is being shaped like Keira Knightly my goal.
I am well aware that I could lose 15 lbs. And that is the goal.
(No- This blog is not a request for someone to shout, "Oh! Brittany! You don't need to lose 15 lbs, that's ridiculous!" Because the person who shouts that is wrong. I know what is healthy and I know my body very well.)
Having lost about 8 lbs this summer and being very pleased with that (and praying not to relapse in my downtime before my next show (please oh please.), I can say that I know my body.
At my heaviest, I was 178lbs. Yea. Read that number and weep. Now, I won't tell you how much weight I've lost because I don't want you mathematicians out there figuring stuff out.
But I will say that it is a pretty big sum.
Here's the thing. I am not either of those things people think... here, I'll prove it to you.
Some thoughts:
I am never going to be shaped like Keira Knightly. Even if I weighed the same as her, my body shape is different; nor is being shaped like Keira Knightly my goal.
I am well aware that I could lose 15 lbs. And that is the goal.
(No- This blog is not a request for someone to shout, "Oh! Brittany! You don't need to lose 15 lbs, that's ridiculous!" Because the person who shouts that is wrong. I know what is healthy and I know my body very well.)
Having lost about 8 lbs this summer and being very pleased with that (and praying not to relapse in my downtime before my next show (please oh please.), I can say that I know my body.
At my heaviest, I was 178lbs. Yea. Read that number and weep. Now, I won't tell you how much weight I've lost because I don't want you mathematicians out there figuring stuff out.
But I will say that it is a pretty big sum.
I share this information for a couple of reasons.
One:
Sometimes I just need to vent my frustrations. Losing weight/staying fit is hard. Noone ever said it wasn't… but gosh it sure would be nice if it was super easy. If I could have one good work out and wake up tomorrow and say, "I'm there! I've arrived!"
One:
Sometimes I just need to vent my frustrations. Losing weight/staying fit is hard. Noone ever said it wasn't… but gosh it sure would be nice if it was super easy. If I could have one good work out and wake up tomorrow and say, "I'm there! I've arrived!"
Physical Fitness and a healthy weight are a life long process. Even when I get to my goal, I will still have to work to stay there. And I think a lot of people forget that. They lose the weight and promptly start eating like they used to (I have been guilty of this… on many occasions). Well, obviously that isn't gonna work.
Two:
Sometimes I just want people to know that I am not oblivious. There have been times when I was spoken to indirectly about my weight. As if a direct conversation would send me into a deep spiral of depression. I don't need a sly hint. Also, it is kind of crazy awkward to pretend you aren't talking about it... when you are...
Two:
Sometimes I just want people to know that I am not oblivious. There have been times when I was spoken to indirectly about my weight. As if a direct conversation would send me into a deep spiral of depression. I don't need a sly hint. Also, it is kind of crazy awkward to pretend you aren't talking about it... when you are...
Three:
... There might not really be a three… in the end. Perhaps three is: I know there are other people who deal with weight loss and physical fitness struggles. And it would be nice to let them know that they are not alone. I am pretty sure everyone has looked in the mirror, turned to the side and checked to see how much their belly stuck out….
(Is that just me? …. oh…. awkward….)
Well, if it isn't just me…. it is ok that you do that! Everyone has moments of insecurity.
Especially in this business.
... There might not really be a three… in the end. Perhaps three is: I know there are other people who deal with weight loss and physical fitness struggles. And it would be nice to let them know that they are not alone. I am pretty sure everyone has looked in the mirror, turned to the side and checked to see how much their belly stuck out….
(Is that just me? …. oh…. awkward….)
Well, if it isn't just me…. it is ok that you do that! Everyone has moments of insecurity.
Especially in this business.